Be Me

If there is one thing good about me…

I would say it is the fact that I have never been anyone else but myself

I made decision from determination

My choice always stands out of the crowd

If not…

I go to bed at night and turn over and over again

Not because I can’t choose but because I’m sometimes scared of choice I’m about to make

So damn scared but…

Every time, I follow my heart

It hurts fucking badly most of the time

Why?

Why I can’t quit being me when it is clearly wrong to be.

It’s only a matter of second when happiness takes over my soul…when I listen to my heart

Then the rest of the time leaves me only with agonizing consequences

I’m not yelling out that I’m right

I’m just quietly whispering that I can’t be anyone else when nobody’s listening to me

I’m a pathetic loser in reality…

But I’m a big fucking winner in my own damn heart